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i wanna give a shout out to my bestfriendz... ad n eric... n da homies... jessica, lyn, jc, and jen... my other friendz... kenneth, ashley, katrina, lizzie, and whoever else i forgot... and i'd like to make a special shout out to da most perfect boyfriend in the world, <3arjay mabingnay <3... i love all of you =D

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Name: RaE RaE
Country: United States
Gender: Female

Interests: doin anythin with my boyfriend arjay mabingnay, chillen wit da homiez, watchin moviez, goin clubbin/parties, playin wit my dogs, n writin/lissenin tooh music
Expertise: try mah hardest tooh b der for mah loved wunz... my family, my ove, and da homiez... esp. arjay mabingnay =] he comes 1st in mah life... i love you baby
Occupation: hustler
Industry: Entertainment

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Member Since: 6/1/2003

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Monday, August 21, 2006

wow... it's almost been 2 years since i've last updated this... some of u might have noticed that i've changed everything because it had my ex-boyfriend all over it... anyway, a lot has happened over the past two years... let me see how far back i can remember... well not that much... haha... i can remember a few major events...

let's take it back to OCTOBER 28TH, 2005... one of the best days of my life... i had the most amazing life changing experience that day... only my bestfriend ADRIENNE GOEBEL knows exactly what happened that day... i will never forget how free and alive i felt that day... i looked at life with a new prospective... i realized that i was being held back for almost 2 years... my relationship with Rocky was going nowhere because of all the arguements that we'd have almost everyday... finally, i found the courage that i had within to do what was best for myself... which leads me to the next day...

on OCTOBER 29TH, 2005, i was finally able to let go of Rocky... although it took me a month to completely get over him, i have NO REGRETS WHAT SO EVER... i realized that i was better off without him... my mom always tried to tell me but i never listened... i wasted almost 2 years with someone who couldn't appreciate all the love i had to give... anyway... after all that, i became a better person... i was finally able to be happy... i was able to go out and chill with my friends, which was something i hardly ever did when i was with Rocky... i had fun and did whatever i wanted to do without feeling guilty... there was no one holdin me back... i admit that i may have went a little too wild... i guess you can say that i was a "promiscuous girl" haha... but hey, i was tied up for almost 2 years... it was the first time in my life to experience being a single, care free teenager... and yes, i kinda went over board on the boys... but damn, i was on the top of my game... i couldn't help it... haha...

i did the whole "single life" up until the end of DECEMBER 2005... then i met Mark... by JANUARY 6TH, 2006, i got involved in my first relationship since Rocky and I broke up... it was fun to have someone around all the time... and it was nice to have a boyfriend at school... i didn't care that he was a junior... but yea... Mark and I were always together 24/7 and i was startin to get annoyed of all the time we'd spend together... Mark never did anything wrong, he was actually a really sweet guy... he'd make a great boyfriend for any girl out there... it's just that i got invovled with him so fast... i thought i was ready to get into a serious relationship, but i was wrong... i didn't know that at the time, i was still a "party girl at heart"... i still wanted to go out and be free... i couldn't go out and party without him being there... and i didn't want to hurt him... so i did what was best for him and i... i broke up with him 2 weeks after we started going out... i felt so bad for doing it... i didn't mean to break his heart... i still am very sorry for doing so... i was back on the market living the "single life" again... we still remained friends, but then i started to have feelings for him again... i even tried getting him back, unfortunatley- he was already talkin to another girl... so yea, you know how the rest of the story goes... after his birthday party on MARCH 4TH, 2006, i gave up on him and moved on to look for someone new...

it was the month of March, when i realized that i was gettin tired of always going out to parties... i was tired of being single... i actually wanted to find someone to have a serious relationship with... on MARCH 11TH, 2006, My Mom and her boyfriend, Kevin got married... so that officially made Kevin my step-dad... i never had one of those... it's still weird for me to think of him that way... because to me, he'll always be Kevin... i'm just glad that my mom is happy with her new life... knowing that my mom was able to love again gave me hope for my future love life...

2 weeks later, i found the love of my life... i remember just like it was yesterday... MARCH 24TH, 2006, the best day of my life... it was the girl's night out... AD, JESSICA, JEN, and I went to INFERNO and i saw 2 familiar faces that were there the month before... since i was having the time of my life, i was confident enough to ask them to dance with me... i asked DENSON first... we danced for a little bit... then the girls went up on stage so i followed after them... that's where the other guy was dancing... i was too shy at first to ask him to dance because we were up on stage... so i waited for him to get off... the girls and i went outside to get some fresh air then when we went back in, he was only a few feet away... i made AD dare me to ask him to dance with me... haha... she dared me... so i grabbed his shirt and pulled him over to me... i had the biggest smile on my face when i asked him to dance with me... it must have been contagious because he was smiling just as much as i was... i've never recieved such a gorgeous, genuine smile from anyone... he was the most incredible dancer that i've ever danced with... he told me his name was ARJAY and that he was a male stripper... haha... what a way to start a conversation... but i found that incredibly sexy... haha... anyway... it was my first time to dance the way i did with a complete stranger... but deep down i knew that he was the one... after the club, ARJAY and DENSON followed the girls and i back to MIRA MESA... we went to DENNY'S and chilled there till 3am... ARJAY held my hand while he ate and before we left, we shared our first kiss in the Denny's parking lot... it didn't take me long to realize that he was something else... the next day we all went to INFERNO again... the last song of the night was Yo! - Chris Brown... and ARJAY danced for me infront of whoever else was still there... i was literally swept off my feet... it was like a dream... it felt as if there was no one else in the room but him and i... no one has ever done that for me... after the club we all went to JEN's HOUSE to watch MADAGASCAR... ARJAY and i were on the couch making out for most of the time... that was our first time to be so close to eachother and it felt so good... for once in my life, i felt like i had everything that i could ever want... before we left, ARJAY and i were sittin in the car and that's when he confessed his feelings for me... he said that i was a beautiful, amazing person and that i'm so affectionate and that he really liked me alot... everything was too good to be true... i remember that it was raining that night... and although ARJAY was really sick at the time... he was still able to be a gentleman and walk me to my door... once again, a new experience for me... so there we were... holding eachother in the rain... then that's when it happened... I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM within that precious kiss goodbye... you know, one of those kisses that you see only in movies where people are truly in love with eachother... i'll always remember that kiss, that indescribable feeling i had inside... the next day i went with ARJAY to pick up HIS MOM at the airport... and i got to meet her... ever since then... we were practically together everyday of spring break and every weekend... i remember sleepin in the car wit ARJAY and Denson everyday of spring break in my own parkin lot... haha... i always wanted to be with him... i had to have him...

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Friday, October 01, 2004

THE SCIENTIST

Come up to meet you, tell you i'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Heads on a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and fingers
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

Ooooohhhhhhh [x4]

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Monday, September 27, 2004

Your name is...

Your kiss is... breath taking

Your hugs are... to die for

Your eyes... sparkle like the stars

Your touch is... heart warming

Your smell is... amazing

Your smile is... amazing

Your love is... one of a kind

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Tuesday, August 31, 2004

those test thingyz r so damn accurate

How to make a rae

Ingredients:
1 part friendliness
3 parts crazyiness
3 parts beauty

Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Top it off with a sprinkle of lovability and enjoy!

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Monday, August 30, 2004

can i getta AMEN!?

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